Archives for January 2013

Surviving Infertility


I stood in the back of the church fighting hard not to cry.  As people streamed in for the service, they were all congratulating our dear friends who had just announced they were expecting their first child.

“Way to pass one by the goalie,” one man quipped as he high-fived the father-to-be.

“I must have a really good goalie,” I thought wanting to run away and hide.

I had “survived” other friend’s announcements of pregnancy, but this time was the hardest.   In my mind, this couple represented the last of our married friends who didn’t have kids yet.  I loved my friend and wanted to be happy and rejoice with her.   I didn’t want to feel sad or jealous.  I didn’t want her to see me cry and make her feel badly.

Inside I was screaming, “Lord, help me!  Help me to rejoice with my friend.  I know I am your child and I can trust You!  (and please, please don’t let me cry!)”

As the service began, my emotions threatened to spill out.  My eyes welled up and my throat burned.  “Lord, please help me” I begged.  “I don’t want to feel this way and I know only You can change my heart.”

During the sermon, our Pastor turned to John 9:1-3:

“As he passed by, he saw a man blind from birth. And his disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?” Jesus answered, “It was not that this man sinned, or his parents, but that the works of God might be displayed in him.”


I knew in that moment that God would use my infertility to display His works in my life.  I knew God created me and He alone knew why I couldn’t conceive.   Sitting there in the pew, I had no idea what it would mean, but I was confident that God would use me.  “Lord, please use my life, so that when others see it, they want You.”

That moment was around 10 years ago.  I still get emotional thinking about it—not because of how sad I felt, but because I now have a clearer picture of how God has used my infertility.  I would not trade my infertility for the ability to conceive—it has made me who I am and it has created our beautiful family.  Through it, God has shown me His perfect love.

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When going through infertility and then my son’s adoption process, I had very supportive friends, but none who understood what I was going through.  Since then, God has blessed me with several friends who have struggled or are struggling with infertility.  Their friendships mean so much to me.

Molly’s sister (and my friend) Emmy has been very open in sharing her story of infertility.  She is passionate about helping other women who are going through this difficult journey.  She has been an encouragement to me because she is one of the few women I know who totally gets it.

Emmy has organized a conference called Choose Joy for women who are going through infertility and adoption.  I am so excited to be attending this conference!  Emmy has lined up some amazing speakers –each with their own story and experience.   One of the speakers is a dear friend of mine who has been an amazing support to me (even when I have called her sobbing!) and I know she is going to be such a blessing to all the women who hear her (she knows who she is!).

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Would you join us in praying for this conference?  Pray that God would use Emmy and the speakers to encourage all the women in attendance.  Pray that God would comfort hearts and create friendships.  Infertility is not an easy topic and everyone experiences it differently—pray that there will be sensitivity and unity among all the women.

It’s not too late to sign up to attend!  If you live in Southern California and are interested in Choose Joy you can find more info at ChooseJoyEvent.com.deb

Project Blessing Bags: A Recap

Happy Friday! I’ve been looking forward to this post all week! Project Blessing Bags Assembly Day has come and gone…and all I can say is, “Wow!”

God is amazing. I know that. But boy is it humbling when we get to be a part of something amazing He is doing! He is perfectly capable of working His miracles without any help from us. In fact, probably most of the time, we imperfect and sinful humans just make His work harder to accomplish! (You know, like baking cookies with a 3-year-old?? Enough said.) I just think it is pretty cool when He allows us to be a part of His work and Assembly Day was one of those experiences for me.

Over $2,800 raised in December by 40 families…

With 60 packers coming together, ranging in age from no hair to grey hair…

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Ready to distribute to those in need!

Assembly Day was just plain FUN!

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No one person funded this project.

Each contributed their “little” – for some that was money, for some, time, some donated supplies, and some will distribute. But, wow! Look how “much” God was able to do with each family’s offering!

Now we get to watch and see what God does with the distribution phase of this project. I actually had an opportunity to hand out my first bag on Wednesday and it was very exciting to have something already prepared and ready to give. The bag was well-received and I’m praying it will have a spiritual impact, as well!

The experience of Project Blessing Bags has taught our family so many lessons. If you’d like to read more about what we’ve learned through this process, stop by my friend Holly’s new blog, It’s a Matter of Moments, where I’m guest-posting today. You can find that story, “Making Much of Little”, HERE.

If you think organizing a Blessing Bags project might be something you’d like to do to make an impact in your community, I’d be happy to share some resources with you to help you get started. Just leave us a comment below! And if you were a part of this Project Blessing Bags, we’d love to hear your perspective and stories about Assembly Day or opportunities you have to give the gift of a Blessing Bag to someone in need. Don’t be shy! Share your thoughts below!

By His Grace and for His Glory,molly

Prayer & Praise Monday – January 21, 2013

Hello, dear Prayer Warriors!

It’s a great Monday! We’re enjoying some extra rest at home on our day off…and better yet, I’ve got wonderful news!

• Praise the Lord for exciting test results for Jacob, our young friend fighting Hodgkin’s Disease. It appears he has won the battle! The PET scan was negative, which means Jacob is officially in remission! We’ve been praying for him for about 4 months now as he has gone through round after round of chemo. God has answered the many prayers offered on Jacob’s behalf! Jacob now has to finish his last round of chemo and wait for his blood counts to come back up (maybe ~ 2 to 3 weeks) and then he will start radiation.  Please pray for patience, as he is so anxious to resume life! He wants to go back to school and start seeing his friends again! Jacob’s mom, Lori, is thankful you for your faithful prayers.

• Another big praise is that our Project Blessing Bags Assembly Day was very successful – and lots of fun! 59 packers, 150 Blessing Bags…Here is a quick preview:


We’ll be sharing more about Assembly Day and the next phase of Project Blessing Bags later this week! I can’t wait to tell you all about it! Please pray for the special recipients of these bags. Pray the Lord will lead us to those who most need the physical and spiritual encouragement contained in our packages. Pray those who distribute bags would be bold and not hesitate to respond to the Holy Spirit’s leading. Pray the Lord would multiply the blessings a hundred-fold! 🙂

• Our friend Meredith continues to seek our prayers for healing of her brain injury and healing from Lyme disease which is doing a lot of damage to her brain and heart tissue.

• Finally, Throne of Grace would love your prayers for God to lead us quickly to solutions to the printer issues that plague us! Pray for wisdom, discernment, and patience as we weigh our options and wait in His timing. Pray we will continue to see God’s faithfulness to not let finicky machines stop the Word of God from going forth!

It is always our joy to be able to lift one another up as we kneel before the Throne of Grace. If you have a prayer need or a praise you want to share to bring God all the glory He deserves, don’t hesitate to contact us!

Be sure to check back on Thursday for a recap of Project Blessing Bags!