How God Found Me: My Testimony

I was raised on science.  I grew up watching nature shows and reading National Geographic magazines.  My home was loving and supportive, but there was no mention of God.  Instead, I learned that we had evolved – but look how far we’d come!  Humans had become the top of the food chain by using their brains, and now that we were enlightened enough to reject primitive myths and superstitions, science and progress would eventually bring about the betterment of humanity. That was my truth – my belief system.

As I grew into a teen and then went off to college, I placed my faith in science to eventually give us the answers to the universe, and then in politics to eventually better society.

This is me in the summer after my junior year of college:

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I was fiercely liberal, and thought conservative viewpoints were what was wrong with the world.  I sometimes felt like something in my life was missing, but I had no desire to seek God.  I thought God was a myth created by people who couldn’t handle the hardships of life.

After college, I was hired into the video game industry and became good friends with a co-worker, Jason, and his wife, Tiffany.

Here’s a pic of them from just a few weeks after we met:

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One day, we got in their car to go somewhere, and I noticed a Bible on the floor behind the driver’s seat.  They were Christians!  But, they seemed so normal!  I was surprised and a little worried…

Over the next few months, I hung out with them a lot, and we became better friends.  Sometimes the topic of God would come up, and we would argue and argue about it.  I considered myself an agnostic – I did not believe there was a God, but I was somewhat open to the small possibility that I didn’t know for sure whether there really was one.

At one point, I went to church with Jason and Tiffany to see what it was like.  I’d never been to a church service before.  I was appalled.  I looked around at everyone and thought I would NEVER believe what they believed.  During the songs I thought I would NEVER want to sing about God.  My emotions were so strong.  I was so angry, and I felt like I was under attack.

And, then one day Tiffany asked me if I would read the Bible with her.  From the time I was a teenager, I’d always felt like I would be burned if I ever touched a Bible.  I didn’t think I’d literally be burned, but my aversion to the idea was so strong that I sort of felt that way.  I felt like if I even just touched a Bible, it would corrupt me in some way.  But, for some reason, I agreed to read with her, but only from the Old Testament.  My entire ancestry is Jewish, and I was curious about the Jewish history in the Old Testament, so I was willing to read from that.  She agreed, and we started reading Genesis.

This is the Bible I used.  It was the first one I ever owned!

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Sometimes just Tiffany and I would read together, and sometimes Jason would join us.  We read through Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, and part of Numbers, and then one day Tiffany asked if we could move to the New Testament.  Over those weeks God had really softened my heart toward Him.  I no longer bristled when I heard about Him.  The thought of Him no longer made me angry.  I agreed to move on, so we flipped forward to Matthew and continued to read and read and read.

Very quickly, God began to shatter the stereotypes about Christians I’d grown up believing were true.  He showed me that I was actually prejudiced against Christians and Christianity.  That was a huge blow to me.  I had been completely blind to that.  I prided myself on my open-mindedness and tolerance, but in reality, I was only open to what I agreed with and what I could see with my own eyes.

Eventually, I was the one calling Tiffany and Jason to ask if we could get together to read.  I was ON FIRE to read and couldn’t read enough fast enough.  I even started reading on my own.  I still didn’t believe in God, but the possibility of His existence was starting to become a reality for me.  I wanted to talk about God as much as I could, and I told my parents about some of the things I’d been reading in the Bible.  My mom was upset and asked if I really believed that Jesus was the Son of God.  I said I didn’t know, but that it could be true.

Over the next few weeks, I continued to grow closer and closer to God.  I told Tiffany one day that I felt like I was falling in love with Jesus.  I had had my heart broken in high school, so the idea of falling in love scared me.  But, Tiffany said that Jesus would never disappoint me or hurt me.

A few weeks later I heard something on the radio that made me start to rethink everything again.  I felt crazy – what was I doing thinking I might believe in God?  Tiffany called me to see how I was doing.  She said she had just felt strongly that she should call me at that moment.  I felt better after talking with her, but I still wasn’t convinced that God was real.

And, then one night, everything changed.  God showed me beyond a shadow of a doubt that He was real and that I was a broken, shameful sinner who desperately needed Him.  I wasn’t just a person who didn’t believe in God – I was actually an enemy of God’s.  I didn’t believe the truth about Him, and I had never placed my faith in Him.  I had no love for Him or any desire to follow Him.  I thought I knew the truth about the universe, but it wasn’t the truth, it was just something that I had reasoned-out based on my own opinions or opinions of people I decided to agree with.  My sins against God and my unbelief were separating me from Him, and I was destined for hell.

But, God made a way for me to be reconciled back to Him!  God is holy and just so He must punish sins, but because He loved me so much, He decided to punish His Son, Jesus, instead of me!  All I had to do was believe that when Jesus died on the cross, He took my punishment for me.  God showed me that He was and is the Truth.

“Jesus said to him, ‘I am the way, and the truth, and the life;
no one comes to the Father but through me.’”

(John 14:6 NASB)

 

I finally admitted that I was a sinner.  I apologized to God for all of my sins and asked Him to forgive me.  I put my faith and trust in Him, accepted Him as my Savior and the Lord of my life, and He saved me from the punishment that I deserved!

“For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek.  For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith; as it is written, ‘But the righteous man shall live by faith.’”
(Romans 1:16-17 NASB)

 

The fact that God would be willing to do that for me proved how much He loved and still loves me!  He showed that He is the only true source of love and hope!

“For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.  For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him.  He who believes in Him is not judged; he who does not believe has been judged already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.”
(John 3:16-18 NASB)

 

Now, I love to sing praises to God, and I love to listen to hymns and praise music! I also love going to church and studying the Bible, and I can’t say enough good things about my sweet and caring church family – one of whom is Molly!

Even though God saved me 13 years ago (this month!), He continues to show His love for me on an ongoing basis.  He is always faithful to meet me where I’m at, encourage me, help me, and guide me through good times and bad.  I am eternally grateful to Him for saving me and loving me, for all of the ways He has blessed me, and even for the trials He’s used in my life to grow me.

So, if you have never accepted Jesus as your savior, what’s stopping you?  Do you think you already know the truth? Do you trust yourself and your own view of the world over God?  Salvation from hell and reconciliation with God are a free gift from Him!  It’s not too late to trust in Jesus!  Come to Him as you are, admit that you have sinned against Him, and ask Him to forgive you!  Place your trust and faith in Jesus – He’s the only one who’s worthy of that!

“…’Worthy is the Lamb that was slain to receive power and riches and wisdom and might and honor and glory and blessing.’”
(Revelation 5:12 NASB)

 

Love,tami

Comments

  1. Tami, I loved reading your testimony! God is so good! I’m so thankful for your friends, Tiffany and Jason! I love that each person’s story with God is so different – but every one is so exciting! Thanks for sharing!

  2. That was a blessing to my heart. How gracious God is to bring us to Him through His working in other believers. That gives me so much hope for my family and friends who don’t know or love Jesus (yet). Thank you so much for sharing! Love you friend!

  3. Awesome! Thanks for sharing! Praise God for His kindness and love for you!

  4. Truely an inspirational testimony. What an awesome God we have that opened your eyes and touched your heart.

  5. nancyljk says:

    Tami, you have a very powerful testimony and I’m so glad you shared it! I pray that God will use this post to open the eyes of many. blessings to you!

  6. This just NEVER gets old!!! Our God is AWESOME. I cannot wait to get to heaven and hear each and every story on how we all came to Christ!! Thank you for sharing. I came to Christ as a child so I really loved hearing your love story. You will lead many to Christ!!!

  7. What a great testimony Tami! Thanks for sharing.

  8. Hi, what a beautiful testimony Tami! Thanks for sharing! It brings us great encouragement to continue praying for some a family member who is very much decided against God , liberal and self pro- claimed atheists. I know you wrote this several months ago , but I now just had a chance to read. Somehow I had disengaged several blogs that I had signed up to read and –not sure how –lol:-/ but as our babies are getting bigger I have found a little time to read and catch up on some of the blogs I enjoy !;-) love you all and love throne of Grace!;-) Blessings, dkdancer

    • Hey Dani! Sorry I didn’t see your comment till now! Molly let me know there were more comments! lol! I’m so glad you had a change to read it and that it was an encouragement to you! You just never know what God will do! My life is the complete opposite of what I ever could have thought it would be when I was in college, and I wouldn’t have it any other way! 🙂

  9. Hi Tami

    Beautiful testimony. Thank you for sharing. Has your mom accepted Jesus too? I’m the only one at home. I dont stay with my mother or siblings, I bet it would be difficult if I did, though my momn has softened a bit.

    Sindi

    • Hi Sindi! My mom hasn’t accepted Jesus, but I’ve seen a definite softening of her heart and my Dad’s, too, after many years of prayer and sporadic opportunities to talk with them. It can be very hard to be surrounded by non-believers – especially when they’re your family! Just keep praying for them! I’ll be praying you’ll be a light to them and that you won’t get discouraged!

  10. Thank you, I’ll keep you in my prayers too.

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