Let me be honest, it’s WAAAAAY past time!
I’m sorry to say it has been months since I last sat down to write a post for Throne of Grace. If you are a regular around here you know that our family and business survived a big move this year. I know many of you were praying for us and your prayers were felt and answered! The Lord has been so faithful in all His provisions and although it was tough, through the power of our Savior I can say we not only survived, but truly did thrive in the midst of the move!
As many of you can attest, big life changes have the power to strengthen our marriages and family relationships or they can be totally devastating. Our prayer all along was that we would stay united as a family, that the challenges of such an undertaking would not compromise our witness to those around us, and that we could glorify God even when it was hard. We had many failures along the way but, praise God, He is allowing us to triumph!
The story is not finished. We are still adjusting (a little dazed!) and living in a month-to-month rental, so we are looking at yet another move down the road. Along with all the personal changes, Throne of Grace is undergoing a makeover as well. I’m having a hard time figuring out how to put into words all that has happened in the last few months!
My attention has naturally been drawn to a million other places as I’ve packed and moved my family and I’m thankful God has given me a ministry that is flexible and can work around our family life. But the task of communicating all the changes and getting back to consistency with this blog has seemed daunting for some reason!
It hit me today how it parallels one of my lifelong struggles with being a type-A perfectionist. If I can’t do it right, I don’t want to do it at all! This mindset can be paralyzing at times! So even after the boxes were unpacked and production in the Throne of Grace workshop had resumed, this website has sat stale and lifeless. I keep waiting for just the right words to explain the past 6 months and get this blog rolling – and they haven’t come!
Satan loves to paralyze us, doesn’t he? It’s one of his many wily schemes. If he can’t discourage our faith, he’ll try to render our faith ineffective. I’ve definitely seen this spill into my prayer life over these past months! This girl who has dedicated the past 6 years of her life to equipping others to live and leave a legacy of prayer has a new prayer journal that has [big confession coming…] been empty for months! [gasp!]. Will you be shocked if I say that I wanted to set it up just right and hadn’t quite decided how I wanted to do it and hadn’t found the perfect pen to use yet…? Such silly excuses, but it’s true!
Am I the only one who has felt spiritually paralyzed?
Maybe it’s not your prayer journal that has sat empty like mine.
Maybe it’s that ministry that God is calling you to take on but you haven’t answered because it’s just not the perfect time yet.
Maybe it’s the neighbor that you have smiled and waved to for years now, but have never invited in for a cup of coffee.
Maybe it’s the conversation that the Holy Spirit has been nagging you to start with a group of friends, knowing that doing so will out you as “in the world, but not of it”.
Maybe it’s not for lack of prayer but a sense that the prayers are producing no answer and you have no idea how the Lord wants you to move forward.
Whatever the situation that has you frozen, don’t you think its time to get going? I sure do! This girl is getting a move on! I’m starting to see a pattern…when I find myself stuck, it is often because I’m making things WAY TOO complicated! The best thing for me to do is to get back to the basics. Return to what I know. Simmer the situation down to God’s simplest principles. He is a simple God.
“Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
I hope you’ll join me and the rest of the Throne of Grace team as we refresh ourselves with a review of the simple disciplines of the Christian life. Let’s get going! We will begin next week with a look at the purpose and privilege of prayer. Watch for that!
Last month we celebrated 6 years as a ministry! Praise God! It’s a good time to remember where we started as we launch ahead with some changes for the future. I look forward to sharing more updates with you soon…
Glad to be back with you at the Throne of Grace!